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[13 Aug 2004|12:08pm] A girl named heart and a boy named break. How fucking convinient. 7 hit me.

[13 Aug 2004|11:07am] "Are you still mad at me boy?" I whisper and grab his hand hoping he wont pull away "It's ridiculous" he says, and "I need time" Well Im sorry but every minute I'm not trying make things right with him is tearing me apart. He goes into kiss me and then stops two seconds away from my lips. I sigh and say "I just want to save whats left of this relationship.." then I kiss him quickly and giggle "You need to shave" but the beautiful boy isen't laughing. "This isent a relationship! If it was a relationship you wouldent have kissed my best friend. Or my drummer. OR my skate buddy." Tears start to fall out of no where and I get off his bed and search for my sandals. "Your right" I say through far from graceful sobs "This isen't a relationship. If it was you would have hugged me by now. You would have kissed me by now. You would have forgave me by now." And I walk out of his house. Right past the bus stop and the 45 minutes home.He doesent call that night, or the next. This boy is everything right in my life and I just cant stop doing wrong. 2 hit me.

[26 Jul 2004|10:52pm] Dont worry love, You dident hurt me. I merely hurt myself. 2 hit me.

[26 Jul 2004|07:53am] I forgot to breathe again, Or maybe your kisses just took my fucking breath away. hit me.

[22 Jul 2004|12:58am] The \\ Last Cigarette: Never Last Alcoholic Drink: Hmm..friday Last Car Ride: Yesterday Last Kiss: a few weeks ago Last Good Cry: too long ago Last Library Book: not sure Last book bought: gossip girl Last Book Read: Dancing in my nuddy-pants Last Movie Seen in Theatres: farenheight 911 Last Movie Rented: Butterfly effect Last Cuss Word Uttered: dont remeber Last Beverage Drank: water Last Food Consumed: ice cream Last Crush: haha now? Last Phone Call: half an hour ago? Last TV Show Watched: Duets Last Time Showered: like 5 today Last Shoes Worn: my shoes? Last CD Played: new blink 182 Last Item Bought: 2 slurpees Last Download: not sure Last Annoyance: girl liking boy Last Disappointment: boy not kissing me Last Soda Drank: gingerale Last Thing Written: a journal entry Last Key Used: house key Last Words Spoken: bye Last Sleep: last night Last Ice Cream Eaten: Birthday cake kind Last Chair Sat In: computer chair Last Webpage Visited: livejournal Create a survey! hit me.

[21 Jul 2004|12:37pm] I think about you like it's my fucking day job. hit me.

[20 Jul 2004|05:26pm] Forever is an awfully long time But so is 3 years And im telling you boy It will hurt alot more if you wait This is advice From a girl who knows about waiting Or maybe its advice From a girl Who wishes you'd be just as willing to wait for her 2 hit me.

[18 Jul 2004|10:34pm] Everyone add me to AIM rockstarlov7 You know you want to! hit me.

[18 Jul 2004|10:33pm] Everyone add me to AIM rockstarlov7 You know you want to! hit me.

[16 Jul 2004|07:43pm] Dear Mere, I love you! New layout because Mere kicks the worlds ass twice daily. naive_mistake 2 hit me.

[13 Jul 2004|08:35pm] Can someone please make me a lay out! If you do I promise we will get drunk and make out! 6 hit me.

[05 Jul 2004|12:10am] 2 hit me.

Love is taking 20 minutes to say goodbye on MSN [30 Jun 2004|12:05am] Excuse me sir How am I sopposed to follow my heart When its in a million pieces on my bathroom floor And sir Your the reason its there You and your untouchable face hit me.

[23 Jun 2004|11:16am] I stayed up all night with 3 girls that I had no idea how much I missed untill last night, and one boy who was more scared when we told scary storys then any of us girls were. We layed on the trampoline with 3 blankets between us for over 5 hours just staring at the stars and talking about random stuff. My parents thought I was at Brittanys and hers thought she was at my house, I like the feeling I get when I realize my parents have no idea where I really am. I almost forgot that Boyface was in the house alone with her, up in her room. Almost. I saw a shooting star and I bet you could all guess what I wished for. At 5 when we came in for breakfast I noticed a hickey on his neck and my eyes began to fill with those tears that seem to show up all the time these days. I pushed the thought out of my head and went back out on the trampoline. When everyone joined me including the two people I least wanted to be around all I had to do was look at them and they knew I wanted to go. They took me out to breakfast and we made a plan, it involves getting him to "Party Hardy" on monday [ alone ], Alcohol and an empty room. Now it just might be the insane jealous speaking but what does she have that I dont? 5 hit me.

[22 Jun 2004|11:19am] Im just done. Im done sneaking out to hang out with him everynight. Im falling hard for boys with blonde hair.They all break hearts. I swear. I liked walking home in the rain, no one could tell I was crying. Though he was way to busy with her to even notice. I wish he knew I spent the whole day telling distant friends of my secret crush. I guess Ill have to endure the "He doesent deserve you"'s all day. It wouldent even be that bad  is she deserved you. I know I'm not pretty or skinny or perfect, but I sure as fuck Im better then her. Maybe you will relize that one day, Of course after how I acted last night I will probably be to embaressed to see you again. Welcome back heart break, Its been to long. I know this doesent make any sense at all but thats what you get when you take 2 caffine pills at 3 in the morning. Dont exceed more then 1 in 8 hours the label warned me, but beautiful boy offered me and I dont know how to say no to pleading blues eyes. So excuse me as I got throw up and I dont even know why. Its just so like me to get my heart broken not even a fucking week into the summer.  7 hit me.

[21 Jun 2004|03:43pm] All it took was One night. Sneaking out of the house to meet my 4 favorite boys. Dancing in the middle of the street at 3 in the morning. 21 degree night. No sleep. One shower. One caffine pill. and One secret. To make it feel officially like summer. [2 Weeks will be a very long time to go with out her.] hit me.

[20 Jun 2004|11:12am] When Im a famous skateboarder THAT will be my ad. [Photo credit: My shoes, Lindsays shoes and then Racheles shoes.] 2 hit me.

[19 Jun 2004|11:53am] I know only the good die young, but it's still not fair that Im getting ready to attend the funeral of one of my best friends little sisters. It's things like this that make me not believe in god. Or anything else for that matter. 11 hit me.

[18 Jun 2004|10:45pm] Dont ever say I dident love you, because I loved you with every inch of my heart. And boy, even hanging out with the 2 coolest girls I know couldent change the fact that the summer smell in the air tonight reminded me of you. Maybe, just maybe, I loved you a little then too. hit me.

[17 Jun 2004|10:50am] On a Monday, I am waiting Tuesday, I am fading And by Wednesday, I can't sleep Then the phone rings, I hear you In the darkness is a clear view 'Cause you've come to rescue me Fall, with you I fall so fast I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts Oh, it seems like I can finally rest my head on something real I like the way that feels Oh, it's as if you know me better than I ever knew myself I love how you can tell I am moody, messy I get restless, and it's senseless And you never seem to care When I'm angry, you listen And me happy, is a mission And you won't stop 'til I'm there Fall, sometimes I fall so fast When I hit that bottom, crash, you're all I have How do you know everything I'm about to say, am I that obvious If it's written on my face I hope it never goes away, yeah On a Monday I am waiting And by Tuesday I am fading into your arms, so I can breathe 2 hit me.

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